Films, and such.

listening to: Amazing by Josh Kelley

sighs. oral for prelims is tomorrow. and im singing at the top of my voice. heh. losing my voice actually. singing through throat. kinda airy and throaty voice. hmms.

anyways, decided to blog since im pretty bored. actually wanted to go read a book and then sleep, but can't seem to get my butt off the chair. haha. im such a slacker at times.

super tired again. but what's new? it's amazing how tired i am this year. sheesh. always catching a few winks every now and then. heck i even slept during history lesson! and history is my fave subject. okaay. so how am i gonna last through miss fool's lesson (heh. deliberate typo) or mrs "jigglypuff" toh's lesson. bummer.

"i should get some sleep cause tomorrow might be good for something."

i've been ultra vulgar this few months. in fact, stretching to late december/early january. feel disgusted at the hokkien swear words flying of my mouth. maybe i've hit the limit. you know. maybe i've lost control of my feelings. keep scolding sherman this year. sighs. sorry dude. i can't control my mouth. been scolding alot of people, justin, mdm gay, gary, joash. argh. why is this happening?

was super angry yesterday. thanks to soccer again. lost like 1194728-4 to some team. totally lost my temper again. started ramming the ball against a wall. and kept missing the wall. maybe it's cause im lousy eh. i remember denis leong said, "if you are good in your studies, you will be good in sports. if you're bad in your studies, you're bad in sports." well. i scored 39points for CA1, guess im no good then. sighs.

suddenly feel very worthless. feel like a complete failure. everything i touch gets some sort of jinx. studies, suck. football, suck. choir, suck. can't hand up homework on time, can't accept my faults, can't do nuts. i know mr lee said, "celebrate the good things in life" or something along those lines.

it's not easy when the bad things are staring straight into your face like that.

[10.30pm]