Films, and such.

listening to: Hide And Seek by Imogen Heap

hello, 2006 and my 17th year.

school's started again and im hardly mr optimistic. i hate school. I HATE SCHOOL. in my opinion, it can only go downhill. i know it all 'works out' in the end, but still. i hate school and im not having much fun. that said, i have things to aim for this year, and hopefully. it works out.

for one, i want to get good grades. yeah thats what i should be concentrating on. i've been playing and trudging along for 16 years now, comfortably making it up to j2 (in the end), but never bing one of the top students. i want my As. i must work for it. my parents expect them, i do too. i know im better than the grades i have now. i dont work as hard as i should.

next, i hope to make it into soccer's A division squad this year. its been a rough, rough one year in soccer and seriously, i dont think im really that motivated anymore. it hurts to be told you're not good at what you enjoy doing, what you are really keen on doing. maybe one day, i'll finally regain my motivation to train hard and run and whatever, but still. for now, at least i have to make it into the 25 man squad.

finally, i hope to hang on to whatever friends i have and be a better friend. its been a tough year, and i havent been the person i want to be. i have a tight group of friends who have been with me for a long long time. and i will work hard to keep it going. its been quite a year for us, and i admit there were some rough patches but hey. we made it through. and we will make it through the new year.

DARK CLOUDS, CHOPPY WATERS AHEAD.